Well this is truly how I felt today
I didn’t want to start the day and once I did it didn’t get better until the very end. I had yet another Panic attack that I’m remedied with a meditation session and a huge plate of poutine [french fries covered with gravy and cheese curds) it sounds gross but it is the most wonderful thing. Yes I realize I was drowning my issues in food. I feel like that’s OK at this moment. After a long nap and. Chatting with a friend I haven’t seen in a while and will see you tomorrow I feel much better. A long soak in the tub never hurt anyone either. I also found myself doing some retail therapy and is this I hope he ends up being something not only good for myself but it’s essential in my life. I ended up buying a water bottle with a large crystal inside it. Whether it actually works or not is yet to be seen but caring around chords can’t be a bad thing especially if it helps with pain. So does the good outweighed the bad yes today it did. Will tomorrow be better no one can know for sure. What are you do you know is there will be some good in tomorrow just like there is something good in every day and focussing on that allows me to be OK with the bad things because most often The good even if it’s few and far between will make up for the bed.