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I cracked the back of my iPhone XR and I have been staying calm about it. The phone itself still works it’s just the back that is completely shattered. I dropped it I don’t know where, or how, or even how many times because I’ve dropped it a bunch. I went to the Apple Store today to get it looked at I was then told I needed to make an appointment. The appointment time came (two hours later) and then it took them a bit to actually get to me. I guess I’m used to waiting, or I’m just a polite person, or I’m just easy-going. Or all three of those things combined. I didn’t mind waiting but apparently my friend did and he made that clear. I was a little annoyed as well but definitely not to the extent he was. maybe I’m just used to it, I expect…

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For the first time in a long time, today I feel like I can breathe. Which is weird because looking at things today I’m not exactly where I want to be. I can say though, now I feel more stable than I ever have employment wise at least. I think I’m starting to realize how much stress employment or unemployment or chronic unemployment really put on me. Not having that is such a relief. At the same time, I know this could all be taken from me in an instant. Until I passed my probation and no that I’m good some of that will always be in the back of my mind. That said, I feel like it just might be to start thinking about the long term. Not too much though, because I know what happens when I do and I have my anxiety under control right now so…

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I saw this on Facebook and knew it had to be today’s post. it’s hard but it makes you feel so much better.

I had a very busy semistressful morning before I opened my Facebook to see this in my Facebook throwbacks: I took a minute and tried taking a breath. It didn’t help. I ended up being able to get done everything I had to this morning and once it was done I had a full-blown panic attack that lasted 45 hours. Because of it, I am taking it easy for the rest of tomorrow as well. It’s just been a really weird day. But those days happen sometimes. I also think that maybe I have a super power of being able to see/know the future. If anybody wants proof there it is. 🙂

How do I describe today, I need a day of sleep TV watching and applying for programs so that I don’t immediately become homeless LOL. So yes some people could see you today as a complete washout and at some points I did too but after thinking about it I did have to take some strong pain meds this morning which would make sense as to why I ended up kind of loopy today and very very tired. That said, I also remember that when I finished work last week I was wanting and even looking forward to being able to take some time for myself and really heal up. Strangely, allowing myself to do that seems to be like allowing myself to be lazy. I know this is not the truth and it will only turn out for the better in the end but the able-bodied side of my…

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I like to remember this when my days aren’t so great. It’s the encouragement everyone needs but never really hears.

There are days and times in life when it is never more clear to you that you are on the right path. Today it was one of those days. As I said at lunch with a few of my colleagues I knew that as much as they like me and I’ve been we will never be on the same wavelength on a personal professional or working relationship. We are just different people and that is OK. As I sat with them and listen to the conversation participating a little and nodding along a little I realize that while they spoke a lot about work either they have no other interest Orange we have completely different views on life. Work is not the end all be all for me, though I know it’s needed and I do you get joy out of being around people and doing a job in which…

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This is funny yes. OK hear me out, I’m sure I’ve said this before but I feel like animals I have a sixth sense that we as humans don’t. They are able to sense things about people and situations that are above and beyond what doctors and people can do. Oh wait, wait, keep reading it, I hold a healthy amount of scepticism for many things, this though I can standby because I have seen it. I may have mentioned this before, but I consider my cats assistance cats and him going through the process of trying to get them registered as such. My cats can predict medical events, they also know whether I have taken medications or not, and, the most helpful part, they are able to tell what kind of physical day I will have before I even get out of bed. If they don’t let me go…

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This is so true and so right even if I don’t believe it all the time. You should. Keep climbing and if you fall get up and climb again.

this is so perfect for today because I think for the first time in a while I am totally OK with my circle. Big or small I know where everything fits. Not to say that something won’t change, actually I hope it does but that I am completely OK with understanding that some people are only to be in your circle for time while others will be there a lifetime. I am not afraid to let people go – or to truly let things be and follow the path that is put in front of me as I discover it. I think as scary as it is to say I am ready to leave what I know for something different that I feel is going to be more authentic to me. What that is, I have no idea but I am willing to lean into the wind, listen carefully walk…

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