All posts tagged: good and bad days

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 265

I was really hard on myself today for needing to take a break. I couldn’t figure out why. Logically I knew it was okay to need one, but because I think I have done more with less at other points in my life it seemed weird or wrong or like I was giving up too soon to throw in the towel now. Then as I lay here in a haze I saw this: I realized by giving myself a break now I was actually doing more for myself and then I ever was in the past. I care about myself now as a whole person and not as selective portions of people I feel like I should or could be. Being authentic has forced me to become more deliberate with my actions and choose more carefully how why and who I do things with. This has only benefitted me. Now I am able to look back and see the error of my ways in previous situations and make better choices the next go around. Though …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 262

Warning the following blog post is up a little bit deep. I may sound a little dash off my rocker and a little bit whooo.Bear with me for a minute, and read to the end before you judge. I saw this and I really hope it applies to me. I need to know the answer to a question I have had for months and hopefully by the end of the week I will have it. I am just hoping that the answer is what I wanted to be, but if not I will have to find a way and I will because I always do, but I just want something to work out for once. I know this sounds negative and really unlike me, I try to be as positive as possible in my blogs because who wants to read about negative things. I am just really going through it right now, and above is how I honestly feel. I know life doesn’t always work out the way you want but it works out the …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 217

There is one fact that was reinforced time and time again today, family doesn’t have to be biological it can be/become people you choose to surround yourself with because for whatever reason they make you feel good. And that reasoning is enough. I challenge the “traditional” version of family because over the past year I have seen family be created and taking on, moulded and reshaped as people and situations change. Family is the people you choose to surround yourself with, the love, the energy, the shared interests or shared experiences that bring you together. Family doesn’t have to be DNA, in fact, I believe, families that are created by people with a shared interest, vision, or values are often closer and become more unbreakable in bond then families that are biologically related. I have nothing against my biological family. I find it though, often I am understood or, if it better, with others. Because of many different factors. Recently this has all come together for me so I thought I would share them. Don’t …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 216

First off, I don’t want this to come across as selfish in any way. I just need to express how I’m feel in this moment. Which is very left out and miss understood. There is a reason I don’t see my family during the holidays. Contrary to popular belief, it is not because I don’t like them. Instead, it is because they don’t get me, at all. They try. I give them points for that. They do not get me though, and that is never more evident than in the Christmas season. I am not treated as an adult. Everything about me is scrutinized and accessible – doesn’t exist. Even the gifts I was given were all aimed at making me “better”. I can’t be in that environment. So for my own mental health I avoided it last year. This year I came back, thinking it would be different after I was assured it would be. It was the same as always if not worse. I am willing the smile to stay on my face, …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 206

I think it is safe to say we all know that I haven’t had the best week. I didn’t have the best Friday either but I made it through and I am going to keep going. There was a time not too long ago when I would have turned it to other coping skills when I had is like the past few. So, Innoway I’m proud of myself. I was able to come out the other side of really dark tunnel. This weekend I’m going to do everything and anything for myself that I can. I am going to sleep. I am going to see a friend. I am going to hang out with my cats. I am going to enjoy every minute of it and I am going to live in the moment. I have spent the last week living in the future and the past. I am no longer my past that story is over. I don’t know what the future may hold those words haven’t been written yet. I can only be …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 192

Today with the recovery day. I did pretty much nothing other then I watched YouTube videos until I went to the spa to get pampered. Some people may call me a princess to which I say here here. I will admit it, and I’m proud of it.If doing something specifically for me once a month is a bad thing then I am a criminal. Why because I indulged in self-care. My two for babies Jackson and Persia also lead around with me although I think they were cuter than I was. literally beside each other basking in the warmth generated by the heated blanket. I think we can learn a lot from animals and today they got it still ride. I’m glad I got out today I needed to after oh the things that went on yesterday. Just don’t ask. But today is a different day and that it’s in the past so I’m going to leave it there. I’m going to take another day to make sure that I am fully OK and then …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 182

I swear I’ll make it there sooner or later sooner than later if you know the rest of the lyrics to this song and or the song these lyrics come from you kind of know how my day has been. And I think these lyrics just summit up. I didn’t have a good day and although I know that that’s OK I am not OK with that. Life will not end because I had a bad day I do know that. But right now I am just going to crawl into bed with some comfort food and my cats and knows tomorrow will be better.

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 168

There are so many things I could talk about that happened today but instead This blog post is going to be a little different. I was kind of tired this morning not really wanting to start the day and I called a friend of mine because they were texting me about something they want me to do when I go to voicemail I left a voicemail only to hear the Acuna Matata ringtone that I assigned this person minutes later. Picking up the phone instead of saying hello or anything like that I continued to sing the entire course of a Acuna Matata from where the ringtone left off until the song finished. We then started a conversation and one thing led to another end the date begin but I think taking that moment should just have fun in a sense set the tone for today.It reminds me that everything in a day no matter how big or small is really only a set of moments when it’s finished, it’s finished. Like I lived in …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 153

I snuggled with my cat today. I’m sure I could’ve done more, I’m sure I could’ve done less. Recently though my tone has changed and I am dealing with -Well basically, not being able to move my legs not like it used to at least if at all. I wasn’t going to mention it, but then I thought, that wouldn’t be honest, And not every day is a happy one but we can find moments of happy in every day. Though I spent most of my day in bed, some of it even crying I did get to watch a few documentaries and snuggle /Love on my cat. He couldn’t care less if I why don’t in all honesty both of my cats like the fact that Mum he uses a chair because they figured it out and they don’t like walking anymore when they can ride. I could be thinking of everything let me change and how my life is over, if I felt that way. But instead, as much as I mourn the …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 152

I wish I could say I was more productive today but sometimes it’s not always about being productive in a “Let’s get it done” type of way. Sometimes allowing yourself a moment process or even just having one day a week to yourself or one hourIs productivity. Without that time a person becomes overworked, stress and angry, not to mention a Marriott of other emotions that I won’t get into. Today I met a new friend and chatted with a few old ones. I was also saddened by some changes the movement but I’m not going to focus on that. Why because that is something I cannot change and thinking about it we’re trying to change it will just put me in a negative mood and I only get two days off on the weekend so I’m not going to spend them negatively. Unless absolutely necessary. Life is too short.