All posts tagged: everyday life

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 207

I’ve been noticing something lately, which may be just me finally tuning into myself, and yes you did read that right, I said tuning into myself,Or maybe a shift has taken place. But I notice over the past two days or so, I have found standing in my truth, in my authentic self to be easier and puke to me as a feeling of peace and fulfilment at the most on opportune times.I should’ve really took note of what I was doing in those moments, because that would be good to know now. I feel like a lot of the upcoming year of 2019 will be like this for me much like 2018 was the year of discovery and figuring out what living in the moment really means. As I lay around today just watching mystery shows and getting good sleep, not just medicated sleep but good sleep I resolve to make this weekend a revitalizing, rejuvenating one. When I go back in to work on Monday I want to be or feel like a …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 131

I spent the day relaxing, or should I say lying in bed by design because my hips have been really sore and ready to pop out at any moment. When I have these days I make the best of them by doing whatever I can from Wherever I am. Today that included catching up on a few episodes of Grey’s Anatomy, chatting with some friends I have not seen nor talk with no very long time, I’m catching up on some YouTube subscriptions. Though this is not necessarily normal, whatever normal is, and I would have much better things to do you want to Saturday the main night involve Multiple hot and cold packs. I realize when this happens to my body, once or twice a month, I like to think of it as my body’s way of resetting. giving me an external trigger to be like slow down, take a minute, you need to breathe. Appreciate the moment. Why lie I love that my body seems to have this internal slow down switch. I …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 127

There is the moment when you’re a person like me who is or has been defined by their disability in the past and I say that with hesitancy because “defined” is not a word I like to use in relation to my disability or what makes me different. Because I always said it didn’t I was and am more than the way I walk. I still think that but I use the word defined because I can’t deny that it has sheet in there for “defined” the person I have become in the experiences that I’ve had, even if I’m honest, the people that I end up around. Today I realize that though this is all true and I will not deny any of that even me as a person who proudly talks about is an advocate for disability can live a life where disability doesn’t matter, it doesn’t matter how I do things, as long as I get them done. It doesn’t matter how I get somewhere as long as I get there. And …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 113

Some days a person may think their life is shit. And then in the same moment they may realize, you know Life is OK. Emotions are weird that way they can take us for a ride even when we feel like we’ve got them under control. I was leaving a car today when I tripped and fell like a cartoon character with one leg in the air and one leg out straight. I would’ve left to but it was painful. Somehow this fall just rattled me. It made me question everything. Hating my disability and myself. Not wanting to do things I have been looking forward to for months. As for the moment for today, I went to a spur of the moment barbeque at work with some friends and it was actually a lot of fun to get out of the office. We didn’t we didn’t end up eating the food at the actual barbeque but instead getting hotdogs chips and drinks from theHot dog cart outside our building. Which to me was just …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 112

Some days could be considered “normal” “boring” or just same old, same old, until something happens, and this something was furry and four lagged her name is Mocha and she is my tailors daughter’s dog. She just made my day after some unforeseen things took place. Either way it’ll all work out and I was glad to have this little one to keep me company. I think she has become the unofficial mascot of the shop. I doubt she minds a bit. And to top it all off I got my dress fitted. What more could a girl as for.

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 105

Today wasn’t necessarily a good day knew there was it a horrible day. It’s my birthday knows that. It was a very emotional day, I think that’s the best way to put it. I’ve always disliked my birthday, this is a fact. I am always depressed and my birthday and I can’t figure out why. It has been many years since I have had a birthday that I can say went well. Today though I can say that I saw my grandma and my brother I got to have lunch with my family and my mom came over when I forgot my glasses for a bit. I even found a cat grooming glove online which I promptly ordered. I hope this doesn’t set the tone for the rest of the year in fact I know it won’t the good thing about days hours minutes and moments is that they are just that there’s always another one and they continue so you’re never stuck in a moment it’s just a matter of rewriting the next one.

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 92

When you have no words let music speak. There is a reason why music has the power that it does and by humans have used it as a means of expression for so many years. I find music very healing and a way I can make sense of life. For others it may be associated with a memory or a specific feeling. A way to say the things you can’t or just way to bring people together, to have fun and be carefree. Everyone is going to have their own way of doing things, I would encourage you to incorporate music into your routine in someway and see if it makes a difference. I know for me a day without music is like a day without air. Everyone is going to have that thing that is their music their thing that they can’t live without find yours and use it to your advantage, don’t be afraid to engage in it if the situation allows and work with it to make your day better. Don’t have …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 89

Well, my house was messy as it has ever been in a while today. Or at least my room was. I don’t normally leave it like this, But I had to run down to catch my ride to the mall. Where I bought a lot of things that I have been putting off for a┬ávery long time. The miraculous thing though is I went with someone I have been to the mall with before and it usually ends well but with some kind of memorable accident sometimes funny sometimes not so funny. But today everything seemed to go well. She seems to understand all of my knees didn’t make any backhanded insults disguised as compliments and we had a really good day. The mess only got worse once I got home with all of my purchases just to drop them off eat takeout food and go back to her house for the evening. And even though this day was busy and messy and completely chaotic. I wouldn’t have had it any other way because I …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 68

I feel like myself again. For the past couple of weeks I guess things have just been hectic and my body has not been taking it well so for a good chunk of yesterday and 90% of the morning save an hour to go and pick up The purse so I slept. And I slept well. To the point that well I feel normal again. I think part of living in the moment as much is making the most of it is also knowing when you need to slow down. This is something that I am really bad at. I was raised to be “normal” which meant doing everything everyone else did, and ignoring my disability and or limitations. Know that Life has made it pretty much impossible for me did you do that, I am faced with the stark reality that I need to slow down sometimes more than I would like in order to keep myself going. It is this balance that I am trying to grasp while at the same time being …