All posts tagged: depression

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 263

I don’t want to say much more because I feel like this says it all. I have a personal connection with project semicolon and I know reading these words or giving advice to someone is one thing but actually being on the other side and the recipient of one of these simple app, I can tell you from experience, has made me cry before. Has recently made my entire day. It has made me feel like a person, At a time when I didn’t know who I was never mind what my purpose was. There was a time when I didn’t know if I word it be able to keep plans that were made or we can advance. A time when things were so bleak I couldn’t see past the next few hours. Really. Seriously. It was bad. I still have those thoughts sometimes but thanks to a lot of work and some good professional I am in a better place. Life has the will and does go out with or without you but I …

355 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 228

I slept today! I am so happy I can’t even express it. I feel so good, I know I needed it because I was starting to get really forgetful and doing strange things. I was so happy to be able to lie on the couch all day. To be able to just be in my living room, instead of my bed room is a huge step for me, never mind to do it all day. Somehow I was also able to do my laundry, meal prep, because yes I am that person, and do all of my before Monday tasks. Thanks to good help. It always surprises me how well I am able to deal with life and the random thinks that pop In and out of it because I remember a time when I couldn’t deal with anything. Life now is so different, I can’t even fathom being the person that I was. So make all the growth, others may call it learning to deal with. Yet others may call it depression. I would …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 205

I want to start off by first Thanking everyone who reached out yesterday. I was just having a really hard and generally horrible day. If I’m being honest, today was much the same. I was able to turn it around a little bit though, pizza and Dr Pepper a girls best friend. I have said before but I think it’s worth reiterating, I need to stop taking things so seriously. I don’t mean to, but it’s gotten to the point now where it’s almost gotten me in trouble, where I take things so seriously that I can’t see the forest for the trees. Or I don’t know when people are joking or not. When people say don’t take things so seriously I think a lot of people interpret that as happy go lucky fun person and I would say and not to paint everybody with the same brush most people find being easy-going and easy thing to do. I used to be one of those people as little as a month ago and then all …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 193

Reflecting back on this time a year ago I was a totally different person. I wrote this comment on Facebook today and I think it sums it up well:I can’t say I’m 100% better, but I can’t say it’s 100% different. Today I did a photo shoot with a friend of mine and it turned out awesome. Pictures will follow shortly hopefully. Not to undermine any of my previous thoughts. Now looking back, and even now in the present, I can see the place I was in at the time, and how I felt that way. But in the present when this happens, I can now see, the way out, the light, the fact that everything which beginnings must end and I get to choose, in most situations, that ending. I can see the person who was floundering trying to find her purpose. now I know my purpose, and I’m not afraid to stand in it or stand up for it. Where I was when defeated I am no powerful. I now see myself for …

365 Days: Living In The Moment: Day 149

I have always been thankful for my for babies. I called him my babies because to me they are children. I am able to have my own children but for right now Jackson and Persia me too cats oh my only kid which is fine with me for now because I don’t know that I could handle more. I have always said since I got them, since I got Jackson really, they are my mental health and if it wasn’t for themI would not be here today. Hands-down, full stop. I think I acknowledge this now because I don’t and haven’t always in the past. And I don’t like someone or something is only acknowledge when it is used. I want to take time in the good times too big knowledge what got me there and tonight use it as a tool in the bad times and then throw it in the closet if you will. I know I could never do that with either of my cats but I need for them to know …