All posts tagged: changing my life

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 268

I had to remind myself of this today and I had to keep reminding myself of this all week really but it’s a good piece of advice.And someone with a disability I can say that I often have challenges that others may not and often have to prove myself just doing “normal” things. often people underestimate me and when they do I have to say I just kind of laughed to myself because I know when I approve them on they are going to be the ones shocked and having to renegotiate what they thought of me while I sit humbly thinking well I knew I could do it. I acknowledge it may take me longer and I may do it in a different way but in the end it gets done and a lot of the time people realize how inefficient they once were or are when they see how another person does something. So underestimate me that’s fine just don’t be shocked when the underestimated rise. This probably sounds arrogant I am not …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 229

This was forwarded to me by my best friend and I have to say it really touches the heart. Especially, as all people go through something what it is and how it affects them is totally different but everyone has a struggle and son are more visible than others and a lot of the time I think we look at people and we see only what they want us to see so we idolize them or think that they must have the perfect life but we all go through something. We all have secrets be share with some and keep from others and that’s OK, some people would even say healthy. Just to know when you fall down you will get back up it may take a while, it may look different to others and even to you. It may not lead you down the same path you had planned for yourself but Life let you get back up. So you stand and you stand tall.

355 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 228

I slept today! I am so happy I can’t even express it. I feel so good, I know I needed it because I was starting to get really forgetful and doing strange things. I was so happy to be able to lie on the couch all day. To be able to just be in my living room, instead of my bed room is a huge step for me, never mind to do it all day. Somehow I was also able to do my laundry, meal prep, because yes I am that person, and do all of my before Monday tasks. Thanks to good help. It always surprises me how well I am able to deal with life and the random thinks that pop In and out of it because I remember a time when I couldn’t deal with anything. Life now is so different, I can’t even fathom being the person that I was. So make all the growth, others may call it learning to deal with. Yet others may call it depression. I would …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 141

Today I was confronted with a challenge that I actually had to throw up my hands and admit disability on but instead of being met with someone being mad at me I was met with one of the most supportive conversations I have had in a very long time. This person actually seemed to not only care about my work and my ability to do it but how my ability to do it would affect my confidence and conversely how currently my confidence is being affected by three issues I’m having with it and the solution is easyAnd simple to implement it was more my stubbornness to not ask for the accommodations I need because I thought I could figure something else out or I didn’t want to admit to myself that maybe I needed that was accommodations but with them my productivity and accuracy should skyrocket and if it doesn’t I’m sure will find another way. Earlier today I felt unappreciated and like no one saw me when it was seemingly the opposite end …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 128

Another normal workday come and gone. But you don’t want to hear about that. What I found most interesting was when I got home unpacked all my stuff I found myself getting into bed around 5 o’clock not that I was going to sleep right away, but I spend a lot of time in my room especially in my bed. Why? I can only think that it is because especially when I’m out all day it takes energy out of me, of course and for me I guess I feel like why would I lie on the couch when I could lie on what I would consider a much bigger couch. Lol Open myself thinking is this what everyone does, this doesn’t seem like a life for me. But then, I realize do I care what everyone else does? No not really. Do I want to be like everyone else? No I don’t. Do I find those thoughts sobering? Yes. But then I think about everything I didn’t do today and how I know that …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 66

I didn’t have the highest hopes for today highest hopes for today. I knew I would get a few things done but I didn’t expect this, I was able to check off everything on my list and I seemed to do everything much quicker than I thought I was going to do in the first place. Either I’m getting better at my job, or I’m learning to roll with the punches, or both. Either way I feel accomplished today even though I am really exhausted and am looking forward to sleeping early tonight and through most of tomorrow. Never set expectations just go into things with an open mind and open heart and the ability to realize that if something doesn’t go right it doesn’t mean that it necessarily went wrong it just means you took another path and if you ask me the path less travelled it’s always full of adventure.

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 52

Sometimes in life things will happen that people call coincidences. I don’t believe in coincidences. I do believe things happen for a reason and if something comes up more than once the universe wants you to pay attention. That happened for me today and instead of ignoring it. I am actually choosing to work on it with positive intention. What is it that I am working on you may ask? I am working on the feelings I have about surrounding asking for help. It’s a hard topic for me as I think it is for many people. But I’m going to try. And this is why I am worthy I deserve happiness I am smart I am loved by many I can make an impact on the world Even though I know all of these feelings to be more than true, there are many times I can get caught up in things and fall into old stories and feelings about myself hence this challenge.It’s time for me to flip the page, close the book. A …