All posts tagged: change

365 Days, Living In The Moment: 224

I am proud of myself today. I found today I was super tired and still am and after spending all day in bed I was able to deal with all of my beginning of the month responsibilities and prep without having a breakdown. The start of the year seems to always be hard for me but especially this year because a lot of things are up in the air and I won’t know until the last minute if those things are going to come through or not. Which gives my anxiety just a little more of a foothold. But, I was still able to get through everything and I’m still alive. I was also able to deal with a really kind of awkward situation in a very me kind of way without feeling weird about it. What I can say now with confidence is, I have found my voice and I am not afraid to use it when I need to. And when I used it things go my way. I am also realizing, I …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 221

I have been having a lot of conversations lately with people about mobility. Before I continue, I must warn you this may be a controversial blog post. These are my views and my opinion, if you have a different opinion please feel free to Voice that opinion and I respectful manner and we can have a conversation about it. One thing I do not want is for people’s views to be brought down or attacked due to this post as I know we can all have varying opinions For various reasons so please keep the comments respectful thank you. As I was saying, I have been having a few conversations with people about mobility and if/when is the right time to start different treatments or in some peoples cases to stop using a certain type of mobility aid and start using a different one. The conclusion I have come to is that it really depends on the person. That said, I can see how parents of people with disabilities may feel that the person should …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 201

Not so long ago are used to believe adulting and therefore life came with a very specific set of values and goals that once completed would solidify you as a successful adult. Having a job, a house, a partner, and just being able to do things whenever the heck you wanted. No I know this fantasy version of adult thing that I used to hold as absolute truth does not look the same for everyone and that is OK. I have a job, and apartment and I can do things pretty simultaneously well some of the time and let’s not forget Jackson and Persia does this make me less of an adult? I don’t think so. What people often forget about adulting and yes I’m putting actual adults in this group as well is the mindset shift which comes with each experience and time. Not everyone’s lives look like the picture I just described or even what I have in my head as being successful does that mean that all people are children well yes …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 200

Wow 200 days! I can’t believe I have made it this far. I really didn’t think I’d make it even past week. Honestly this challenge has truly become part of my life and changed how I look at things. Years ago I was a ball of stress, never even able to take a breath when talking to someone. Now – well someone describe me as very chill. And I am. To say I don’t let the little things get to me would be a lie, because everyone has their days. I had one yesterday in fact. But often I am able to put the little things into perspective, and even the big things don’t seem life ending or life-changing, Unless of course they are. 200 days is a mile stone, but there are so many fun things to come, knowing about a few of them and not knowing about many of them I can say for certain, this is going to be a fun life changing year and continuing this journey and creating the next …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 153

I snuggled with my cat today. I’m sure I could’ve done more, I’m sure I could’ve done less. Recently though my tone has changed and I am dealing with -Well basically, not being able to move my legs not like it used to at least if at all. I wasn’t going to mention it, but then I thought, that wouldn’t be honest, And not every day is a happy one but we can find moments of happy in every day. Though I spent most of my day in bed, some of it even crying I did get to watch a few documentaries and snuggle /Love on my cat. He couldn’t care less if I why don’t in all honesty both of my cats like the fact that Mum he uses a chair because they figured it out and they don’t like walking anymore when they can ride. I could be thinking of everything let me change and how my life is over, if I felt that way. But instead, as much as I mourn the …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 131

I spent the day relaxing, or should I say lying in bed by design because my hips have been really sore and ready to pop out at any moment. When I have these days I make the best of them by doing whatever I can from Wherever I am. Today that included catching up on a few episodes of Grey’s Anatomy, chatting with some friends I have not seen nor talk with no very long time, I’m catching up on some YouTube subscriptions. Though this is not necessarily normal, whatever normal is, and I would have much better things to do you want to Saturday the main night involve Multiple hot and cold packs. I realize when this happens to my body, once or twice a month, I like to think of it as my body’s way of resetting. giving me an external trigger to be like slow down, take a minute, you need to breathe. Appreciate the moment. Why lie I love that my body seems to have this internal slow down switch. I …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 128

Another normal workday come and gone. But you don’t want to hear about that. What I found most interesting was when I got home unpacked all my stuff I found myself getting into bed around 5 o’clock not that I was going to sleep right away, but I spend a lot of time in my room especially in my bed. Why? I can only think that it is because especially when I’m out all day it takes energy out of me, of course and for me I guess I feel like why would I lie on the couch when I could lie on what I would consider a much bigger couch. Lol Open myself thinking is this what everyone does, this doesn’t seem like a life for me. But then, I realize do I care what everyone else does? No not really. Do I want to be like everyone else? No I don’t. Do I find those thoughts sobering? Yes. But then I think about everything I didn’t do today and how I know that …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 118

It is time to make a change. Time to put my money where my mouth is and actually change my life. Yes I have changed internally emotionally and spiritually. But now I feel the time is right to make a big change, not just hair or nails but something I think I have been wanting to do for very long time and never really had the guts to do. It is time to make a change. I don’t care what people think, because I know this change will be for me.

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 106

After the day I had today and I’m not even going to go into it I think this Facebook post by somebody I don’t even know says it all. I was talking to my mom this evening and saying to her I was done worrying I was just going to let it be and what happens or doesn’t is meant to happen. I didn’t and don’t want to waste even more time thinking and or in this case overthinking about scenarios that I don’t have control over or only have so much control over at some point I have to let go and trust that things will work out. I also know that the people or places or things I am wearing about her not being worried about by other people places or things so why am I stressing myself out and overthinking over something that in the long run of life has very minimal if any impact. When things are not life or death they don’t affect people that you love and they don’t …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 77

Most of Canada had a day off today and I really needed it. To hang out, lie around and do absolutely nothing until it absolutely needed to be done. For those of you who may be wondering yes I still got everything done and the wonderful thing is I didn’t worry about it all day. I was actually able to enjoy the moment I was in, knowing that yes I needed to still get things done but it was okay, to take some time to breathe.