All posts tagged: change in attitude

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 266

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this is so perfect for today because I think for the first time in a while I am totally OK with my circle. Big or small I know where everything fits. Not to say that something won’t change, actually I hope it does but that I am completely OK with understanding that some people are only to be in your circle for time while others will be there a lifetime. I am not afraid to let people go – or to truly let things be and follow the path that is put in front of me as I discover it. I think as scary as it is to say I am ready to leave what I know for something different that I feel is going to be more authentic to me. What that is, I have no idea but I am willing to lean into the wind, listen carefully walk with intention and open my eyes to what’s next.

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 255

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I just had a teachable moment with someone. Who was cutting me off when I spoke, thinking she knew what I wanted like she was a mind reader, and trying to make me work at her speed. This doesn’t happen at my house. Sometimes I will let one of these things go, given his situation but lately I have become much more of a boss, especially with my help. The days of walking over Mindy are long gone and the days of me standing up for myself I have become a reality and it’s not sometimes it’s pretty much all the time now. This might sound bitchy and self-centred but please no I do not mean it that way. I do not have time for sub par help. If you do not want to be around me in a positive way in my house you can leave. If you insult me, my family or something I hold close to my heart. You can leave. If you do not believe that I know what’s best for …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 240

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I can’t help but feel like I found my groove. In the work. In life. And most importantly I just maybe have found the person that I am. Of course this would hit me in the middle of the day, when taking a break to process is not possible. I will say knowing yourself or getting a glimpse of yourself, Is A much easier way to do life then one what is first think. I find at least, when you are true to your self it is so much easier to know what is right for you and what just won’t work. It’s easier to stand up for yourself and make your opinions known and that it’s easier to get what you want out of life. I have found, things are a lot less stressful and I will let a lot of things slide because I realize, I really only get one life and one chance to be who I am so why worry about the things that I cannot control. I want to focus …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: 224

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I am proud of myself today. I found today I was super tired and still am and after spending all day in bed I was able to deal with all of my beginning of the month responsibilities and prep without having a breakdown. The start of the year seems to always be hard for me but especially this year because a lot of things are up in the air and I won’t know until the last minute if those things are going to come through or not. Which gives my anxiety just a little more of a foothold. But, I was still able to get through everything and I’m still alive. I was also able to deal with a really kind of awkward situation in a very me kind of way without feeling weird about it. What I can say now with confidence is, I have found my voice and I am not afraid to use it when I need to. And when I used it things go my way. I am also realizing, I …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 212

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Today has really tested me in many ways. There are many times I could have given up but I found my confidence today. There was at least one conversation I really didn’t want to have but had to because it was one of those conversations you just can’t avoid. End it was taxing but in the end I’m happy with my decision and I will stick by it. Because, I am important and worth the decisions that I make or the time that I choose to give to someone in. Just as another’s is time is just as important as your own. I like my life today.

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 210

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As I look back on today the work part, professional Mindy did nothing remarkable really. In the taking care of business, personal Mindy, she got it together today. Now I’m going to stop talking about myself in the second person, and say, today I feel like great strides were made, I finally feel somewhat on top of several different situations going on in life that I have needed to get a hold of for a while. To finally feel in control of something, after not having control of it for a long time, I can’t describe the feeling. I also found myself being conscious of my needs yet resource full with what I have. The last and one of the most noticeable shifts in my thinking has come gradually over the past few months but I certainly noticed it today. I don’t deny any more that I like and in many ways I need to (I hate using those words in this context) because I feel like some of this is a luxury, I get …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 209

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As I sit here after eating dinner and hour later than I had hoped I have to pat myself on the back. I was supposed to be picked up from work today by the accessible transit Service and after waiting a few minutes I called to see if they were running late. In fact, they were and the operator told me it would be about 20 to 30 minutes. As I went back into my building and began to text a friend, telling her about the situation I stopped midsentence – mid text and realized, I have no control over this and neither does anybody who I would tell about it so knowing that I have no control over me I should just let it be. And within that I found the driver came in 10 minutes or so. Are year ago I would not have thought this way. Or year ago I would be a grumpy mess yammering about this situation to my friends for the next week. As if it was the worst …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 197

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There are some days where, For whatever reason you get up and do you know and that it is going to be a good day today. On the flipside there are other days where you know that something bad is going to happen. This was neither of those days. This was one of those days that memories are made of. That sounds corny, I know. But the more I have these days, The more I want to acknowledge them. The days where I just feel like a normal person. Regardless of what went on in my day, Weather I’m having a good day or not medically, regardless of the chair. My people make me feel normal, my people being, my tribe, the people who I choose to surround myself with. Not those who I have to be around. Like I said yesterday, I feel like the choosing makes all the difference. By choosing something, I inherently have control. When something is done to me, or for me without my knowledge or permission or recognition. Thus …