All posts tagged: breathe

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 267

I thought because today is Valentine’s Day I would talk a little bit about self-care. Something that I have been really bad at lately and my body and so are getting mad at me for it. How do I know what? I just do, I can feel it and sends it and as much as I am in my authentic self with in that but I also know when my alignment is off. I know it sounds a little woo but it works for me. I am the type of person to give and give to other people or things in my life to the extent that I will often leave myself for last and go and do things because they need to be done or it would be easier to do X now instead of ex and Y later so I basically run myself to the bone. I acknowledge that, but now I feel it even more intensely and deeper than I have before. So I am taking my self-care seriously and, not just …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 262

Warning the following blog post is up a little bit deep. I may sound a little dash off my rocker and a little bit whooo.Bear with me for a minute, and read to the end before you judge. I saw this and I really hope it applies to me. I need to know the answer to a question I have had for months and hopefully by the end of the week I will have it. I am just hoping that the answer is what I wanted to be, but if not I will have to find a way and I will because I always do, but I just want something to work out for once. I know this sounds negative and really unlike me, I try to be as positive as possible in my blogs because who wants to read about negative things. I am just really going through it right now, and above is how I honestly feel. I know life doesn’t always work out the way you want but it works out the …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 252

So cold. It is so cold today. -37 without the wind -52 I think with the wind. It just means -cold. I came to a big conclusion today and no it was not about the cold it was about something else. And hopefully in a week or two I will be able to say more but because I am very superstitious I want to say more than that right now. But as soon as I am able to I will. What I can say, it is interesting how perspective of both things is gained at times you wouldn’t expect. It is even more interesting if you look at the choices people make at different points in their lives and compare them how you may end up seeing correlation and differences but in the end everyone is looking for the same thing. When I come to a decision about something I find it’s much easier for me to make decisions about other things as if everything hinged on one decision even though I know that is …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 243

I think often I know and witness people who are so caught up in trying to transform themselves into something whether it’s through working out or cosmetic surgery, or piercings, or tattoos people I want to reach a certain point at which they feel comfortable and feel good about themselves and or for some people a feeling of “normalcy” I am not immune to this. I fully admit that I have changed the feeling that is normal for a very long time. Before I realized normalcy is a relative. Instead, when I think of normalcy now, I think of equality. Wait, wait, not in the way you’re thinking. When I say equality I mean, The ability to get into my apartment weather in a different way you’re not just to be able to do that, to be able to come and go as I please and not have to rely on someone. To be able to get a job based on my knowledge and skills and not the fact that I use a mobility aid. …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 232

I left this morning at 6:30 AM I came back this evening at 8:30 PM. My muscles are so tight and contracted even when I try to relax them I can’t. And I was sitting all that time. Don’t get me wrong today was a really good day. I mean work was work, but I was able to get my nails done and pamper myself a little bit in. Which you know, if you know me, getting my nails done and a couple other things at the spa once a month is part of my mental health/self-care routine. If it all went away tomorrow I could definitely deal with it. Believe me, I have thought about cutting it out. But then I’ve had people in my life, even my mom, tell me not to. Even saying/typing that, is really hard for me, because I know that money could be going to something else and I know I still struggle with feeling worthy of the time, attention, and care, that is paid to you at the …

355 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 228

I slept today! I am so happy I can’t even express it. I feel so good, I know I needed it because I was starting to get really forgetful and doing strange things. I was so happy to be able to lie on the couch all day. To be able to just be in my living room, instead of my bed room is a huge step for me, never mind to do it all day. Somehow I was also able to do my laundry, meal prep, because yes I am that person, and do all of my before Monday tasks. Thanks to good help. It always surprises me how well I am able to deal with life and the random thinks that pop In and out of it because I remember a time when I couldn’t deal with anything. Life now is so different, I can’t even fathom being the person that I was. So make all the growth, others may call it learning to deal with. Yet others may call it depression. I would …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 221

I have been having a lot of conversations lately with people about mobility. Before I continue, I must warn you this may be a controversial blog post. These are my views and my opinion, if you have a different opinion please feel free to Voice that opinion and I respectful manner and we can have a conversation about it. One thing I do not want is for people’s views to be brought down or attacked due to this post as I know we can all have varying opinions For various reasons so please keep the comments respectful thank you. As I was saying, I have been having a few conversations with people about mobility and if/when is the right time to start different treatments or in some peoples cases to stop using a certain type of mobility aid and start using a different one. The conclusion I have come to is that it really depends on the person. That said, I can see how parents of people with disabilities may feel that the person should …