All posts tagged: belonging

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 262

Warning the following blog post is up a little bit deep. I may sound a little dash off my rocker and a little bit whooo.Bear with me for a minute, and read to the end before you judge. I saw this and I really hope it applies to me. I need to know the answer to a question I have had for months and hopefully by the end of the week I will have it. I am just hoping that the answer is what I wanted to be, but if not I will have to find a way and I will because I always do, but I just want something to work out for once. I know this sounds negative and really unlike me, I try to be as positive as possible in my blogs because who wants to read about negative things. I am just really going through it right now, and above is how I honestly feel. I know life doesn’t always work out the way you want but it works out the …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 256

I feel like often people don’t realize how much being able to do that little thing really does impacts our life. Today I got to use One of those blow drying combs and it actually worked. I am so excited now I can dry my own hair. I was also able to get in my cupholder reattached to my chair after it fell off and having it work again is like I can’t even explain. I’ve been having trouble with it falling off for the past few days so now having it secure and just feel better. Being able to hold and transport my own coffee that’s like a thing. I think people often take for granted the cupholders they have in their car or their ability to hold something and walk. These type of things just make me feel “normal”. I even might be getting a bath lift that will allow me to take baths again. That I haven’t done in at least six months and I love baths. All good things, all good …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 243

I think often I know and witness people who are so caught up in trying to transform themselves into something whether it’s through working out or cosmetic surgery, or piercings, or tattoos people I want to reach a certain point at which they feel comfortable and feel good about themselves and or for some people a feeling of “normalcy” I am not immune to this. I fully admit that I have changed the feeling that is normal for a very long time. Before I realized normalcy is a relative. Instead, when I think of normalcy now, I think of equality. Wait, wait, not in the way you’re thinking. When I say equality I mean, The ability to get into my apartment weather in a different way you’re not just to be able to do that, to be able to come and go as I please and not have to rely on someone. To be able to get a job based on my knowledge and skills and not the fact that I use a mobility aid. …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 236

I find myself in a weird position, caught between two worlds. Two sides of myself colliding and I have to figure out how to make it work. The artsy side of myself who would love it to express it self in different mediums and live in a space where being creative is encouraged and sought after. And the practical side of myself, who needs to figure out how to keep working, while also paying attention to my body and what it needs; while trying not to neglect my mind and in my heart. Many times I have thought the answer would just make it self clear, and sometimes it does but, I have a funny feeling, this time will be up to me. Do I do the same thing, or jump in with both feet and try to make it work. It’s hard to know when your heart is in one place but your mind is in another. You know if you could make one work the other would be easier. I can make money …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 154

When I saw this on Facebook I just had to share. Life is to short to be normal I need to remember that today, especially after the last few days I’ve had. To remember to love and embrace myself the way I am and not get down on myself were not being “normal” it’s something I have been trying to get through my thick skull for a very long time. It is also part of the reason I started this blog. So earlier today I reached over to friends of mine to tell them aboutIn the recent developments, and catch up a little bit, and to use them as a sounding board for a few things. Instead of the reaction I thought I was going to get, the exact opposite happened. These friends seemed unsupportive, and, dare I say mean. After finishing my conversation with him which was rather short. I thought for a second and instead of dwelling on the fact that they were mean, seemingly. Ended up calling someone else. We had a …

365 Days: Living In The Moment: Day 147

I have always said when it comes to life in general would just like to be treated like everyone else and respected as such. A lot of times that doesn’t necessarily have been and it’s OK because it’s for a good reason, like, when I used transit I am in the front of the bus. This makes it easier for everyone to use this service and for me to get on and off. Somewhere like within my leg please wear with my friends through if I’m not treated like everyone else I do take offence to that. Only because I see myself like it but now and I feel like people should too. I know I cannot impart my own thoughts on other people they have their thoughts and that is completely fine but it’s nice to be thought of as equal, with nothing held against you, only necessary accommodations made for you, and the knowledge that you to have knowledge, and are a part of the team. On the same token it’s nice that …