All posts tagged: Anxiety

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 262

Warning the following blog post is up a little bit deep. I may sound a little dash off my rocker and a little bit whooo.Bear with me for a minute, and read to the end before you judge. I saw this and I really hope it applies to me. I need to know the answer to a question I have had for months and hopefully by the end of the week I will have it. I am just hoping that the answer is what I wanted to be, but if not I will have to find a way and I will because I always do, but I just want something to work out for once. I know this sounds negative and really unlike me, I try to be as positive as possible in my blogs because who wants to read about negative things. I am just really going through it right now, and above is how I honestly feel. I know life doesn’t always work out the way you want but it works out the …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 206

I think it is safe to say we all know that I haven’t had the best week. I didn’t have the best Friday either but I made it through and I am going to keep going. There was a time not too long ago when I would have turned it to other coping skills when I had is like the past few. So, Innoway I’m proud of myself. I was able to come out the other side of really dark tunnel. This weekend I’m going to do everything and anything for myself that I can. I am going to sleep. I am going to see a friend. I am going to hang out with my cats. I am going to enjoy every minute of it and I am going to live in the moment. I have spent the last week living in the future and the past. I am no longer my past that story is over. I don’t know what the future may hold those words haven’t been written yet. I can only be …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 197

There are some days where, For whatever reason you get up and do you know and that it is going to be a good day today. On the flipside there are other days where you know that something bad is going to happen. This was neither of those days. This was one of those days that memories are made of. That sounds corny, I know. But the more I have these days, The more I want to acknowledge them. The days where I just feel like a normal person. Regardless of what went on in my day, Weather I’m having a good day or not medically, regardless of the chair. My people make me feel normal, my people being, my tribe, the people who I choose to surround myself with. Not those who I have to be around. Like I said yesterday, I feel like the choosing makes all the difference. By choosing something, I inherently have control. When something is done to me, or for me without my knowledge or permission or recognition. Thus …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 191

Today was not my favourite day. I had to deal with some stuff that no one likes to deal with. I know I did the right thing and the what happen will happen, I also know that I have great friends who have and will help as much as they can if I need to deal with this again. But that’s not really what today is a boat. I was actually racking my brain over what to post today because I don’t like to talk about negative things and when I was getting back from running errands part of my keychain that laugh. As I pick it up I realized what it said. I can’t help but think that maybe someone was looking out for me. Or my thing is just no went to fall apart and. I just thought it was interesting because though I love this tag I never really think about it. And I kind of forgot that it was even there. It was a great little reminder that people have my …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 185

Maybe it’s because I haven’t always been an optimist, who am I kidding I am a self-proclaimed pessimist 90% of the time. I often feel like if I expect the worst when the best happened I can just be surprised by it. I mention this because, I realized today oh, life is good.That might seem like a rather simple and matter fact statement, but, if you’re someone like me who always seems to running to good things butHave a hard time keeping them around. Maybe you know what I mean when I say like it’s good, for the moment. It was funny I realized that, when I was driving home from work and there was no somethings going on that would normally stress me out and cause me to have anxiety all evening. I thought about them on the way home,But at the same time as thinking about them I was able to compartmentalize them put them in the “work part of my brain”and think well I’ll deal with it tomorrow. Which I feel like …

365 Days: Living In The Moment: Day 149

I have always been thankful for my for babies. I called him my babies because to me they are children. I am able to have my own children but for right now Jackson and Persia me too cats oh my only kid which is fine with me for now because I don’t know that I could handle more. I have always said since I got them, since I got Jackson really, they are my mental health and if it wasn’t for themI would not be here today. Hands-down, full stop. I think I acknowledge this now because I don’t and haven’t always in the past. And I don’t like someone or something is only acknowledge when it is used. I want to take time in the good times too big knowledge what got me there and tonight use it as a tool in the bad times and then throw it in the closet if you will. I know I could never do that with either of my cats but I need for them to know …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 140

Sometimes you meet people out of nowhere and they stay in your life forever and sometimes you meet people that you’re just vibe with right off the bat. That was me today with my new hairstylist. I should say for any family who maybe meeting, I have not gotten rid of my old hairstylist, OG, I just need a change. I found one whom my manicurist recommended and it seems that we just get each other. Which is nice when you’re dealing with something like hair -being such a personal thing that we have to look at and wear all the time. Reflecting on today though are you ago I would not have even asked for recommendations and if I did I wouldn’t be one too reach out to other people I would’ve been too nervous were scared where as now today I did it without thanking about it which I believe is a step for me so it must be. I think with many parts of growth you won’t notice them until long after …

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 108

I find myself talking to someone today to make an appointment and unlike any other person in the medical field this person actually seemed to care about me. Not to say that other people don’t, but hear me out. This person was referring me to another doctor and as I asked her questions about the appointment I was about to make she said something to the effect of ‘are you sure you want to do this now, I don’t want to stress you out and therefore make things worse.’ I ended up making the appointment but after I hung up the phone I couldn’t help but think about the fact that I have never been asked but in that way before. So often, it is just assumed that doctors or specialists give appointment time allowing for some flexibility but not necessarily considering how the person may feel about going to see them. I found this approach and thought process so if rushing and under utilized. In my experience, often the medical profession is either scientifically-based …