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I know myself as a person. I also know myself and my ability to work with and control my own mobility equipment. Walker, wheelchair, crutches, even walking on my own. Yes I still do that. Within all of those things I know what I can do and what I cannot do I also know what happens when you in someway disturb the way I am doing something. In some situations it will turn out badly. Just because it looks like I do not have control does not mean that is the case. Case in point, when I am going down a steep ramp I will be going fast and that is the law of physics. I have gone down that ramp several hundred times in my life so I know where to stop in order to stop before I hit anything and or when I need to add speed in…

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Anyone knows me would tell you I am an almost overly organized person. I admit that and I like it, granted, my form of organization may not suit everyone. It may be organized chaos but I know where everything is. My problem seems to live inside drawers or cupboards inside anything really. That said, I can tell you exactly but something looks like exactly where to find it and what items are around it. Why? When you have help like I do you need to know where all your stuff is at all times. I give this bit of backstory so you can understand where I’m coming from when I tell you about this next situation. I get cleaning done once a week for my entire apartment. Recently, I have been trying to my cleaning game because I realize how much messier life is on wheels. Normally my room yet…

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Wow. When I started this I couldn’t imagine actually finishing it. Tomorrow this series will end and on Thursday a new one, nightmares from the chair, will begin. This is Another daily venture, exploring the sometime is funny, sometimes terrifying, sometimes educational situations I find myself being on a daily basis complete with my actual internal dialogue. This series will not be for the faint of heart. This blog series will include course language. In the interest of full disclosure. Anyway, I still have two more days of this blog series. So, I find myself fresh Out of tears and maybe that’s a good thing. Maybe it means that I am actually going to get over having to move on. If you’re lost you’re not the only one. Long story short, I have a very good friend who is moving and I won’t be able to see her as often…

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I wish I had more fun stuff to talk about but I really spent this weekend relaxing and recuperating trying to get back to myself. I have needed to ground and look within for a while now and I have not been able to do that. For a variety of excuses none of which are really relevant. I have resolved to make it a priority though because I know I feel better when I cleanse and ground on a regular basis and if this is something I can control in regards to how I feel why wouldn’t I. As it is victoria day today (In Canada) most of us had the day off of work so I was able to sleeping although for me sleeping in is getting up at six now but I was able to just do nothing all day and feel good about it. My only accomplishment…

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The last few days have been pretty tough for me so when I saw this I knew I had to post it because my first reaction was I couldn’t have said it better myself. I needed to see this and I’m sure others will benefit as well.

My thoughts exactly. I really like the job I’m doing now and yet going home to my bed is my favourite part of the day. I now know my limits, which I would have never acknowledged before. I would go go go barely ever stopping in. And though I still experience this in certain aspects of my life I have to say I think some of it has gotten better. Knowing my limits allows me to use my time more authentically doing only the things and that I know need to be done or that make me happy and have the greatest impact on my life. So yes I am very excited to go home at the end of the day to see my cat have a snuggle and try to get as much done for the next day as possible. That said, I am starting to realize it’s OK…

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There is no denying it, today What’s a bad day. I’m still sad. And I know tomorrow will be different but in this moment the only thing that went right today what is the fact that I had 3/2 eaten pints of ice cream in my freezer. I now only have one. The best part of my day was finishing off both mint chip and cookies and cream ice cream. Not all at once. I was bliss. My legs are still tight but I did manage to get them stretched for a minute or two today and that felt good. And it’s worth it if not only for 15 minutes of looseness. Fellow CP lifers you get me. The third thing that went well today Dash I was able to get a trip to my tailor to hopefully make me some wraps/capes /ponchos. I have a very large collection of…

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I am going to make a change. I am going to cry more. During my depression and for as many years as I can remember before that. I was and still am a very sensitive person. I could cry at the drop of a hat. Since working through my depression and getting into the appropriate therapies I don’t cry as much. which I thought was a good thing. Today though I realize it may be good, I don’t cry about every little thing, but, I still need to let myself cry. So I’m giving myself time every week or two to sit with any emotions I may be experiencing and see what comes of it. I have now realized what everyone what has been telling me for a while. I always knew this and I never thought of crying this way, but people say crying is okay, even needed. And…

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so simple and yet so profound. I think the message here is something we all would do well to remember. I will also say, shining is one thing. Having the courage to shine is another. Knowing that you may have work to do but you are still worth it is something that I as well as I’m sure many people struggle with.This really resonated with me and will be in affirmation I end up printing out and putting on my wall. Because, “You do you do not have to be whole to shine.” There are so many ways I could take this quotemetaphorically in a mental way as well as physically. We often think of ‘pretty normal people’ at least that is what is portrayed in the media so that is where we are conditioned to think of as beautiful as whole as what we should aspire to as people.…

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For the first time in a long time, today I feel like I can breathe. Which is weird because looking at things today I’m not exactly where I want to be. I can say though, now I feel more stable than I ever have employment wise at least. I think I’m starting to realize how much stress employment or unemployment or chronic unemployment really put on me. Not having that is such a relief. At the same time, I know this could all be taken from me in an instant. Until I passed my probation and no that I’m good some of that will always be in the back of my mind. That said, I feel like it just might be to start thinking about the long term. Not too much though, because I know what happens when I do and I have my anxiety under control right now so…

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