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I wish I had more fun stuff to talk about but I really spent this weekend relaxing and recuperating trying to get back to myself. I have needed to ground and look within for a while now and I have not been able to do that. For a variety of excuses none of which are really relevant. I have resolved to make it a priority though because I know I feel better when I cleanse and ground on a regular basis and if this is something I can control in regards to how I feel why wouldn’t I. As it is victoria day today (In Canada) most of us had the day off of work so I was able to sleeping although for me sleeping in is getting up at six now but I was able to just do nothing all day and feel good about it. My only accomplishment…

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Well that was fun. I got a new phone yesterday the iPhone XR in red And since I have gotten at home there has been a problem with every second app I have used or had to open. So I spent the last hour and a half trying to get my posting app to connect to my site so that you can read this post. And guess what, well I must’ve made it work right because you’re reading the post. I had to do last nights post on the computer and well let’s just say it was not a scene with as it normally is. Other than that, today I touched up my hair and sobbed. But it was a good cry the kind that is cleansing the kind that you need to have once in a while. The kind that drained you emotionally and then makes you want pints…

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My thoughts exactly. I really like the job I’m doing now and yet going home to my bed is my favourite part of the day. I now know my limits, which I would have never acknowledged before. I would go go go barely ever stopping in. And though I still experience this in certain aspects of my life I have to say I think some of it has gotten better. Knowing my limits allows me to use my time more authentically doing only the things and that I know need to be done or that make me happy and have the greatest impact on my life. So yes I am very excited to go home at the end of the day to see my cat have a snuggle and try to get as much done for the next day as possible. That said, I am starting to realize it’s OK…

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There is no denying it, today What’s a bad day. I’m still sad. And I know tomorrow will be different but in this moment the only thing that went right today what is the fact that I had 3/2 eaten pints of ice cream in my freezer. I now only have one. The best part of my day was finishing off both mint chip and cookies and cream ice cream. Not all at once. I was bliss. My legs are still tight but I did manage to get them stretched for a minute or two today and that felt good. And it’s worth it if not only for 15 minutes of looseness. Fellow CP lifers you get me. The third thing that went well today Dash I was able to get a trip to my tailor to hopefully make me some wraps/capes /ponchos. I have a very large collection of…

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I am going to make a change. I am going to cry more. During my depression and for as many years as I can remember before that. I was and still am a very sensitive person. I could cry at the drop of a hat. Since working through my depression and getting into the appropriate therapies I don’t cry as much. which I thought was a good thing. Today though I realize it may be good, I don’t cry about every little thing, but, I still need to let myself cry. So I’m giving myself time every week or two to sit with any emotions I may be experiencing and see what comes of it. I have now realized what everyone what has been telling me for a while. I always knew this and I never thought of crying this way, but people say crying is okay, even needed. And…

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so simple and yet so profound. I think the message here is something we all would do well to remember. I will also say, shining is one thing. Having the courage to shine is another. Knowing that you may have work to do but you are still worth it is something that I as well as I’m sure many people struggle with.This really resonated with me and will be in affirmation I end up printing out and putting on my wall. Because, “You do you do not have to be whole to shine.” There are so many ways I could take this quotemetaphorically in a mental way as well as physically. We often think of ‘pretty normal people’ at least that is what is portrayed in the media so that is where we are conditioned to think of as beautiful as whole as what we should aspire to as people.…

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For the first time in a long time, today I feel like I can breathe. Which is weird because looking at things today I’m not exactly where I want to be. I can say though, now I feel more stable than I ever have employment wise at least. I think I’m starting to realize how much stress employment or unemployment or chronic unemployment really put on me. Not having that is such a relief. At the same time, I know this could all be taken from me in an instant. Until I passed my probation and no that I’m good some of that will always be in the back of my mind. That said, I feel like it just might be to start thinking about the long term. Not too much though, because I know what happens when I do and I have my anxiety under control right now so…

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Well last night I went to bed with a migraine this morning I woke up with a migraine for part of the day it went away but now it’s back. So this is us today. so you know who the more photo genic one is. The one with the fur who never leaves my side. Miss Persia has escaped to somewhere but I should also give her recognition as she has been here all day with Jackson and all three of us have had a wonderful Caturday. People underestimate the power of four legs in for as well as healthy junk food. Tomorrow I will adult.

I am ready for bed and all I did today was work and get groceries delivered. #LivingMyCPLife Adult thing is hard Period. And when you have a disability adult thing is even harder. Not because of the physical nature of it but because of having to coordinate everything. I don’t know that people quite understand just how much goes into every day of a life as a person with a disability Weather you have Help or not. There is always a schedule to follow. Whether it’s someone else’s or just your own list of to do’s. When people see us at work I think they think we got out of bed got dressed and came in but do they know what goes into that. The staff you have to schedule or the time and you have to do a lot. Not only to get out of the house but then…

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So yes I had a really bad day yesterday. Yesterday is the past and the one thing I can say about the past is it gives me 20/20 hindsight. The one awesome thing about yesterday was that I found the best most grounding song yet. “Something wild”By Lindsey Stirling. It is my new anthem and wouldn’t you know it, everything is starting to work itself out, Now I have a plan up my sleeve and I know it’s going to happen in it’s own time and I am going to end up exactly where I need to be It is with that faith and knowing that I say with certainty it gets better.

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