Warning the following blog post is up a little bit deep. I may sound a little dash off my rocker and a little bit whooo.Bear with me for a minute, and read to the end before you judge. I saw this and I really hope it applies to me. I need to know the answer to a question I have had for months and hopefully by the end of the week I will have it. I am just hoping that the answer is what I wanted to be, but if not I will have to find a way and I will because I always do, but I just want something to work out for once.
I know this sounds negative and really unlike me, I try to be as positive as possible in my blogs because who wants to read about negative things. I am just really going through it right now, and above is how I honestly feel. I know life doesn’t always work out the way you want but it works out the way it does for a reason, at least that’s what I believe. I have big plans for this next year and I really want them to work out. So let me try. Or believe in me –that’s A novel thought I know. I can do things, I will do things, the only question is will certain people be there to share in my victories? Or do they insist on being the ones who put me down and only see me at my lowest points.
As much is this question which is on me and I really need to know the answer. I am trying not to think about it and to live my life because dwelling on a question that I will not be the one to answer seems like a waste of energy. The one thing that I can tell you for sure is that I have a finite amount of energy and I do not want to spend it on negative things or negative people. So let it be, what it will be and in the meantime I am going to do the best I can to stay presence, balanced, and here in this moment because in the end I know and you know that’s all there really is. The question will be answered and life will go on, and continue, and move forward and if initially the answer to that question will be the past and then you present, and then you now will be at the question, the worry, the moment.
this totally describes my day today. But I know I will make it, to the next day, and the one after that, and the one after that. And in case you’re wondering – you will too.
I feel like way too often we as people with differences or people with disabilities are misunderstood and the things that we may get a kick out of or celebrate like being able to dry your own hair other people just don’t quite get it. So though I see The intended message of this image, be around people who are positive and make you happy rather than those who are negative and suck the energy out of you. I also see be around the people who celebrate the little things with you who understand why and how, getting assistive technology can change your life.
I think it’s universally known that people who live with challenges whatever they may be whether physical or not have it harder in one way or another or several ways than other people and I think it’s time that we as those people, Acknowledge that and society does as well. Understanding makes a huge difference and often is And the difference between our friendships and non-friendships. I’ll end by saying this: compassion is a rare traits finding yourself among the noise of everybody else is also hard to do but being around people who radiate positivity and to make you feel like a better you is a good start.
First I need to say this is not one of my fur babies I got this off of a good old Facebook. So I take no credit for the photo with the wise words that we all know are true.
i’d like to take a moment to acknowledge those four-legged friends in our lives whether they be feline canine or something else entirely. Never know it may be true that in many ways they run our lives I want to give some credit today to all that you do for us. The secrets they keep, the tears they dry, and the days they make just a little better just by being around.
I have said it before and I will say it again I couldn’t imagine my life with out fur babies. And I couldn’t imagine their lives without me. So as much as it is true dogs have owners and cats have staff the love between us is worth it.
There are definitely days where living in the moment is a choice and letting things roll off your back is a task and a half. I want to acknowledge that. Today was one of those days. Not in the majority actually but when it came to accessibility. I could take this blog post in many different ways but for the sake of time and education I am going to say, accessibility is not just physical, it is as much to do with attitudes and assumptions being barriers as it is weather for stairs. Something to keep in mind when you next encounter a person with a disability.
That said, the right attitude can get you through almost any situation this is true both in life and in terms of accessibility and living with a disability as part of your daily existence. If you have one or two good people in your life that can keep the right type of attitude for you it’s surprising how much your life can change and you can get through.
Though today was trying it doesn’t mean that tomorrow won’t be better and as we yet to immerse ourselves in the community more often as people with disabilities and people with just awesome attitudes, cool things to say and personalities people want to be around. The stigmas and preconceived notions people have about”disability” will slowly start to shift. So, even though today was not the best day, it was a learning experience for everyone involved.
I feel like often people don’t realize how much being able to do that little thing really does impacts our life. Today I got to use One of those blow drying combs and it actually worked. I am so excited now I can dry my own hair.
I was also able to get in my cupholder reattached to my chair after it fell off and having it work again is like I can’t even explain. I’ve been having trouble with it falling off for the past few days so now having it secure and just feel better. Being able to hold and transport my own coffee that’s like a thing. I think people often take for granted the cupholders they have in their car or their ability to hold something and walk. These type of things just make me feel “normal”.
I even might be getting a bath lift that will allow me to take baths again. That I haven’t done in at least six months and I love baths.
All good things, all good things.
I just had a teachable moment with someone. Who was cutting me off when I spoke, thinking she knew what I wanted like she was a mind reader, and trying to make me work at her speed. This doesn’t happen at my house. Sometimes I will let one of these things go, given his situation but lately I have become much more of a boss, especially with my help. The days of walking over Mindy are long gone and the days of me standing up for myself I have become a reality and it’s not sometimes it’s pretty much all the time now.
This might sound bitchy and self-centred but please no I do not mean it that way. I do not have time for sub par help. If you do not want to be around me in a positive way in my house you can leave. If you insult me, my family or something I hold close to my heart. You can leave. If you do not believe that I know what’s best for me and, I can and will tell you what to do you can leave. I am not dealing with “Bad” help anymore. I am taking it into my own hands and I am going to live my life. If you want to help me do that, you are welcome in my home. If you do not feel this way and would rather Bring a negative attitude into my life please don’t because you’re not welcome here.
I recently found a great image on Facebook that I would love to use as my guiding principles for 2019. I think it does a good job of putting everything in assisting to me while also creating positivity. I realize I might be tough but I have a certain way that I want to live my life and I do not want to sacrifice that for another person or another person lack of want to do their job.
Although today I was not really around people, I think that’s what I needed. Which is the beauty say as I’m a very social person but I think sometimes you need a day or a few hours alone and just to recharge and get things done. Not that I don’t love the hustle and bustle of my office but it’s nice to have a day where no one is bugging you and you can just hang out with your headphones in doing your thing. And yesterday’s post I spoke about the little things and have all the little things are what make life. This is one of those things and this is one of those days. After the week I have had I needed a day like this and I am happy to report that I was able to get 90% of my work done.
There was one part of my day that was not necessarily the best I had to wait a while for my ride home and is much is I was annoyed by this I can’t really say I was surprised. I’m used to it by now which is kind of bad because I shouldn’t be used to getting home and hour after I should be but I am OK with it now and there are much worse things that can happen in life than being in our rates or having transportation problems. The bigger problem is in life make these small inconveniencing everybody seem like small inconveniences and it is only recently that I realize how fragile life really is. I mean I have written this series of posts for the last 254 days but I am not sure I really knew what living in the moment was until I was directly confronted with the possibility of not having someone in my life and that was terrifying. Let’s just say I take moments a lot more seriously now.
So now I’m home in my bed I can’t really ask for much more other than a good weekend that is unfolding in front of me and the ability to live in the moment that I can truly remember this weekend and for every other weekend to come.
Cat snuggles. Living in the moment today is Cat snuggles. It’s the little things.