The moment you realize you have not posted on your blog for upwards of 11 days and you don’t know what you have been doing with your life. I post on this blog because I love it but also because I “have to do it” or else I don’t feel like myself.
Lately I have been trying to figure out why I don’t feel like myself Lol I can’t believe I didn’t realize it sooner and as I write this post I am immediately feeling better.
I have this quote hanging in my office and Megan always keeps reminding me to do the things that feed your soul. I guess I was so used to doing 365 days and it became such a routine in my life that I could never get to this point of feeling not bad about myself but just a little more stressed and anxiety ridden. So I thought I could do this series every couple of days but it turns out that I need to post something every day just to keep me in the right headspace.
If you don’t know what haven’t realized by now this blog is almost like my online journal and without it I now know that I am much more of the person I have been working so hard to get away from. The person who was people pleasing, anxiety ridden, worrying about what people thought of her, and putting on a mask to get through life.
We know I don’t do that anymore. Been there done that have the T-shirt and don’t want to go back. All this to say you’re going to be seeing a lot more of me and my crazy life in the days to come. Because, this blog is one of the things that makes me me and in Macon’s words feeds my soul and without it I’m not me at least not to me I want to be so here’s to more posting and les conforming to the standards of other people just for their own peace of mind.