I can now say this comeToday was a day of mixed emotions but all things considered I think I am leaning towards the positive At least by now I hope I would be. I’ve only spent almost a year blogging aboutThe more or less positive things in my life.
At the same time, work is always interesting and yes they are being supportive for the first time in my life. Yet I couldn’t help feeling like I’m going to lose my job. So It’s always a working progress.
You know a person can’t be happy all the time. A good friend told me recentlyVery few people’s lives are always happy.It’s always a balancing act,You are going to have some awesome things happenWhile at the same time ugly horrible things are going to take place in different areas of life.Learning to embrace that, those moments of pure chaos and overwhelmedIs what we all do. How we’ll cope is different and that’s what makes us, us.
So I may have had a bit of a hard time at work today but I was able to hang out with friendsTonightLaugh and joke all eveningAnd that circumvents the growing pains that come withStarting a new job.And, newsflash, I still have it. People are more than understanding and as much as I love that -I will be happy to start becoming part of the routine rather than the newbie.
Balance seems to be the key for me and scheduling everything in his tricky, but, I understand if I don’t do things a certain order or have a particular routine in place,I am not going to be me.Or, I should say, I would be a lesser version of myself.The one thing I know for sure,I don’t want to hide anymore. I don’t want to have to put on a mask for people. And outgoing. I can be funny and still taken seriously. I am worth the time.