365 Days, Living In the Moment

365 Days, Living In The Moment: Day 262

Warning the following blog post is up a little bit deep. I may sound a little dash off my rocker and a little bit whooo.Bear with me for a minute, and read to the end before you judge. I saw this and I really hope it applies to me. I need to know the answer to a question I have had for months and hopefully by the end of the week I will have it. I am just hoping that the answer is what I wanted to be, but if not I will have to find a way and I will because I always do, but I just want something to work out for once.

I know this sounds negative and really unlike me, I try to be as positive as possible in my blogs because who wants to read about negative things. I am just really going through it right now, and above is how I honestly feel. I know life doesn’t always work out the way you want but it works out the way it does for a reason, at least that’s what I believe. I have big plans for this next year and I really want them to work out. So let me try. Or believe in me –that’s A novel thought I know. I can do things, I will do things, the only question is will certain people be there to share in my victories? Or do they insist on being the ones who put me down and only see me at my lowest points.

As much is this question which is on me and I really need to know the answer. I am trying not to think about it and to live my life because dwelling on a question that I will not be the one to answer seems like a waste of energy. The one thing that I can tell you for sure is that I have a finite amount of energy and I do not want to spend it on negative things or negative people. So let it be, what it will be and in the meantime I am going to do the best I can to stay presence, balanced, and here in this moment because in the end I know and you know that’s all there really is. The question will be answered and life will go on, and continue, and move forward and if initially the answer to that question will be the past and then you present, and then you now will be at the question, the worry, the moment.